Loretta included an Augustus P. Gardner quote in her post today, just for me. Well, ok, so I know it wasn’t just for me, but it certainly applies to my attitude lately!!
Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the non-pharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality.
Um, yes, yes , yes! Addictive? Yes – and becomes a pattern quite quickly. Momentary pleasure? Yes, though not so pleasurable for those around you. Separation from reality? Yes, again! The question remains, will I wallow in its narcotic effects, or push past them?
On a completely un-related note, I realized something about me today. I love to learn, but I hate to research.
Maybe it’s my natural tendency to be lazy, but whenever I’m faced with something where I have little to no knowledge base, I get extremely flustered. I much prefer to have someone teach me about said new challenge.
For the past two years (side note: say what? It’s been two years!?), I’ve thrown up my hands in confusion and avoided changing my eating habits. A huge part of it has been avoidance/laziness, I know. Another contributing factor is that I truly don’t know how to eat well. There are so many theories being bandied about – how do I know which one is correct/appropriate for my family and for me? “Conventional wisdom” and “common sense” seem to change monthly.
I’ve been to see a nutritionist once before, but, well. . . she was young and, frankly, not at all helpful. My guess is she was just out of college and didn’t have much for client-interaction experience. I left with a bunch of articles to read (none of which were even remotely practical) and a few packets of 0-calorie salad dressings – which were disgusting.
I thought that was my one chance at receiving “professional” instruction, and subsequently decided to go it alone and just “find something that works for me.” Ha! In other words, I was going to attempt to drastically change my approach to life – by myself – and the first step on that journey was to dive head-long into something that I loathe. Yeah, that worked out well!
So, now it’s July 2011. And what shall I do next? Meet with a different nutritionist? Try researching again? Ask The Hubs to do the research? 😛 Read on the internet for 10 minutes and just pick the first thing that sounds logical? Oiy. I’m getting a headache already. Of course, that could be due to the fact that it’s coming up on 2:00 pm and I have yet to eat lunch!
Anyway, I realize there’s not much of a resolution or plan of action to this post. It’s just an observation, I suppose. Any advice you have would be much appreciated!